My Life

My life....

Thats about all I have to say right now

I just got a sudden rush of stress and loneliness and...who knows...

Spring Sing is less than a week away and I feel like Im doing something wrong and things that I feel should be getting done like...yesterday...arent getting done and for some reason thats my fault. Even though I am ready, and waiting, and wanting to get it all done and finished....its not happening. And the frustrating thing is that I cant get these things done alone. Other people have to set aside time to tell me what they want/need in order for me to do my job. Other people have to freaking care. Care that I am about to do a job that no other student has ever freaking done! Care that I am stressing out a little about that!! Care that I need everything to be ready and close to show as possible asap or else I might freak out a little. This is my class, my project, my job...and if I cant do it correctly I fail. I need people to care about that....


So...yeah, what I have to say right now is "My life."

Plus you know on top of the problem just described there are all the other things stressing me out, or whatever they are doing to me. The list right now could go on and on.

Also, I need friends. Not just "oh yeah, I love you, we are friends" kind of friends. I need friends that I make plans with, friends that I actually see and talk to. Friends that I feel like are actually there....

But who am I kidding...when am I going to have time for those kind of friends. I myself am an awful friend, I shouldnt expect anything different from other people.

My Life