Saturday, April 16, 2011

My Life

My life....

Thats about all I have to say right now

I just got a sudden rush of stress and loneliness and...who knows...

Spring Sing is less than a week away and I feel like Im doing something wrong and things that I feel should be getting done like...yesterday...arent getting done and for some reason thats my fault. Even though I am ready, and waiting, and wanting to get it all done and finished....its not happening. And the frustrating thing is that I cant get these things done alone. Other people have to set aside time to tell me what they want/need in order for me to do my job. Other people have to freaking care. Care that I am about to do a job that no other student has ever freaking done! Care that I am stressing out a little about that!! Care that I need everything to be ready and close to show as possible asap or else I might freak out a little. This is my class, my project, my job...and if I cant do it correctly I fail. I need people to care about that....


So...yeah, what I have to say right now is "My life."

Plus you know on top of the problem just described there are all the other things stressing me out, or whatever they are doing to me. The list right now could go on and on.

Also, I need friends. Not just "oh yeah, I love you, we are friends" kind of friends. I need friends that I make plans with, friends that I actually see and talk to. Friends that I feel like are actually there....

But who am I kidding...when am I going to have time for those kind of friends. I myself am an awful friend, I shouldnt expect anything different from other people.

My Life

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Oh me oh my

I have been so bad at updating my blog. Maybe it could be because my laptop doesn't like to connect to the internet anymore. Or maybe because I sometimes forget about it. Or maybe even yet that because by the time my day is done and I'm in bed the only thing I want to do is sleep. Either or all could be true.
What I can state as fact though is that spring sing is pressing Closer and closer, getting nearer and nearer...a good sign that this is happening would be that it is 3.22 and I just got in bed after working on club lighting a good portion of my evening and night.
Oh me oh my. It will be a busy and slightly stressed and adventurous next few weeks. Then school is pretty much over. Just like that.
Over. And then I graduate.
Part of me is kind of glad I'm sticking around for while because maybe then, when I'm not a student and a theatre major, I will actually be able to do the fun social things that most people fill their time at Harding with.
Who knows

As for now though, I need to fill my time with sleep.
Night